FROM: Sef
Hey Mal, are you on tumblr too?
FROM: Mal
Hey Sef!!! Nah, that's all Tati's domain. I'm a lil spooked by spreading myself out like that. Wouldn't wanna end up like Thomas, HAHA!!
FROM: yh
hijust popping in to say that this looks REALLY GOOD and intricate im genuinely in awe... i'm curious how you got to know henry!
FROM: Mal
Thanks, YH!! I dunno, thought bringing over my shitty ass computer would make this place feel like home once we all started going virtual. And totally -- Henry and I came into this place not too far apart! We made a zine that talked about all that a bit a while back but I lost it. But yeah, I mean, he was the only dude who didn't look like he fell out of my History 207 textbook, HAHAHA. And we liked pretty similar jams!
FROM: dragons
You can find William here: https://www.williamy3w.tumblr.com. Are you looking for him? Why can't we trust him? Who is he?
FROM: Mal
RATS!!!! The dude's been busy. I guess after Tati disbanded, that scene's been looking for new sounds. He doesn't have your best interests at heart, dude. I know better than ANYONE! ! !
I'd give him a piece of my mind, but he's so far from my usual digs it might end up being a literal piece HAHA! Don't let him figure out where I've been holing up, O.K.? And DONT let him get you in. It's not worth it! It's not worth it! It's not worth it! It's not worth it! It's not worth it! It's not worth it! It's not worth it! It's not worth it!
Much love and concern!!!
FROM: anonymous
tell me what else is there
FROM: Mal
WHAT ELSE IS THERE!!!
FROM: dragons
I like your demo btw! How is Henry doing?
FROM: Mal
He's O.K last I checked. I keep my promises even if I want to talk to him SO BAD cuz SOLIDARITY ROCKS !!! So you won't get his new digs outta me!!
P.S. FUCK yeah I'm glad the demo rocked ur world!!! Riot Grrrl (and Henry!) Love realness!
FROM: Sef
Hey Mal!! I finally found the page with your replies, psyched we can actually chat! How are you doing? Demo is still awesome, wish there were more out there.
What did William do btw? He seems like he misses Henry and wants to apologize, but everything is so vague. Are you still in contact with Tati too? She's on discord these days!
FROM: Mal
TATI???? Are you sure it's her?? That's totally incredible!!!! Fuck. I really don't wanna stray too far from this place, but if she wants help, you could ask her to stop on by here?
And WOAH sorry, I totally thought you were getting these! My bad! Glad you joined the party, Sef!
I do have to keep my replies someplace niche just so I'm not attracting the wrong kind of attention. It's like when you're shoplifting and a cop drives by except all the cars could be cop cars and if they catch you you become roadkill HAHA! And talking about some things are like calling 911 while you're shoplifting if you know what I mean!
Same kind of a thing with William!!! If I give you too many specifics it would be like calling 911 and yelling I HATE PIGS!!! into the receiver. What he did -- I told him not to do it and he did it ANYWAY. I feel AWFUL about it. An apology is nice, but it doesn't fix anything and he KNOWS that. Be careful!
FROM: anonymous
!
FROM: Mal
!!!!!!!
FROM: anonymous
why is Tati banned from the BRB page?
FROM: Mal
From the what?
FROM: c
thoughts on dogs?
FROM: Mal
Hey c!!!
I think dogs are cool!!! Someone here once drew me as a dog with a cool ass fringe and lotsa rainbow colors. That was rad!!
FROM: Sef
Hey Mal, bad news. Tati doesn't seem to be doing so good. She's speaking mostly in code (though who isn't), but is talking about being "Too weak to stand" and "10%" and asking us to "Send the call out / That I am weak" when I asked how we can help. Do you know what's going on?
FROM: Mal
Oh... yeah, that makes sense given everything. I'm surprised she can still say things!! I'm sorry I can't say more!!
Ugh this is like TOTALLY moral dilemma bull shit n stuff. Cuz I want to talk to her and tell her she doesn't have to do that cult shit anymore. But I guess she's too weak to make it here if she doesnt??
I might try something really stupid and try to go talk to her. Where are you seeing her?? Can you give me the deets??
FROM: anonymous
hey Mal, do you remember how long the Corvettes concert in Heaven was supposed to be? the one that started at 7pm, with the riot grrrl meeting afterwards?
FROM: Mal
Think it was a long set, maybe around an hour? Those gigs were usually pretty casual cuz peeps can mill around and drink and chat afterwards. Then once it felt like everyone was kinda settled down we'd start the meeting!
FROM: Sef
We're talking to her via discord! https://discord.gg/q3murKpW . I'm a bit anxious, admittedly, cause I see William talking about "didn't know she was still kicking" and paying a visit, though I don't know which "she" he's talking about. Does 74k3P56p8h mean anything to you?
FROM: Mal
Thanks, Sef!! I'll see what I can do. Those letters dont mean much to me, but if it's Tati I'll get to her first!!! William talks a big game but he's just as scared as all of us. Doubt he'll be rushing over exactly.
FROM: c
also, got any recommendations for anything?
FROM: Mal
YEAH!!! I've been listening to Rock Star by Hole.
FROM: Sef
Mal, we managed to get in contact with Henry too!! Do you want us to pass anything along to him?
FROM: Mal
No worries, I know how to get to him if I gotta. Give the dude his alone time if he wants it!!
FROM: Kai
Hey Mal! How're you doing? Do you have any messages you'd want to send William or Tati?
FROM: Mal
Hey Kai!!! Tell Tati I'll be there soon and hang in there!! And DONT tell William anything about me!! The fucker.
On March 28th, 2024, Mal entered Tati's Discord server and had the following conversation:
FROM: anonymous
you okay?
FROM: Mal
YEOWCH that SMARTS!!
FROM: Sef
Mal?? Mal are you okay??
FROM: Mal
OUCH!!!
FROM: Sef
OH THANK GOD I thought we'd lost you when you faded from the Discord like that. I was worried you'd ended up like Thomas, I'm sorry for encouraging the trip TT Are you okay? How are you feeling?
FROM: Mal
Hi Sef!! No biggie, it's not your fault! Just lost a bit of...something, there, I guess. Dunno what. Gonna probably stick close to home and recover! And good to see Tati. Thanks for checking in.
FROM: Sef
I notice you dropped this in the channel description: https://static.wixstatic.com/media/7f1f6c_d9c09ba54c1544acabcd660649473edc~mv2.png Don't know if you want it back or not to plug that... uh, hole you've got going on.
Is there any way we can help you recover? Tati seems to do better with more members in her discord, Henry seems to respond well to audio files. Is there anything that makes you feel livelier?
FROM: Mal
WOAH!!!! Thanks, Sef. Feeling much better!! Guess I was a little far from home out there. And THANKS for the offer, I'm doing O.K. for now -- I'll let you know if that changes.
AND BE WARY of doing favors for peeps around here...
FROM: dragons
Hi Mal! Thank god you're okay!!
I wanted to ask, is there a way to send you files? Like if I found a really cool picture I wanted to show you?
FROM: Mal
YES!!! Send me the World Wide Web address, I can usually pop over pretty easy for a little while!!
P.S. Thanks for the concern!!
FROM: c
hi mal! dog for u
FROM: Mal
WOAH!!!!!!!! RAD!!!!! THANK YOU!! I think you'd have really liked a friend of mine. Got similar vibes if that makes sense!!! ROCK ON!!!!
FROM: Ange
Hey Mal, you ARE rad as fuck. But I'm here to tell you something: don't take this lying low. I will help you. We can do something, we can be community once more. Don't give up, love from a trans sister.
FROM: Mal
Damn, Ange.
You're TOTALLY right.
........
I dunno, I guess it's been so long that I forgot what its like to have this much LOVE and SUPPORT behind you. Thank you for the reminder!!! Massive riot grrrl LOVE...and I'm NOT giving up!!!!!
FROM: dragons
Hey Mal! I've been reading Our Power Our Rage a lot lately, and I think page 3 is probably my favorite - it really sends a message about how you have to change your thinking. Do you have a favorite page (or text, or drawing) in the zine? If you do, why is it your favorite?
FROM: Mal
Hi dragons!! I'm PSYCHED you like it!!! When I was out there I loved putting zines together with the grrrls in the Lower East Side scene. Got brave enough one day to add one of my journal entries (the one on page 6 and page 7!!!) and some doodles throughout and I'm pretty proud of 'em.
FROM: will (not that one)
heya mal! out of curiosity, do you remember the date of the meeting that Our Power, Our Rage was advertising for? was it the same time you got pulled into the abime?
FROM: Mal
Same night, yeah!!!! So Nov. 11 '92!!
FROM: m
Were you ever on good terms with William? He says that he remembers you calling him a "sad wet cat", and I was wondering if he was telling the truth about that or coming up with lies about you.
FROM: Mal
Yeah, the dude's a sad wet cat. PATHETIC!! Maybe if you don't want people to run away from you, you shouldn't be doing fucked mad scientist shit!
FROM: kai
Hey Mal, glad to see you on your feet again! Had me real spooked for a minute. Let me know if you need anything!
Also I noticed you had a few Bikini Kill songs on your roadtrip playlist with Henry, and I was wondering if you had any favorite song you'd recommend. I've lived out in the PNW for a good five years, but have only recently started exploring the music scene (new and old).
FROM: Mal
Hey Kai!!! Yeah, it takes me a bit longer to reach out after all the STUFF at Tati's. For Bikini Kill songs, check out "Double Dare Ya" - one of my favs!!!!
FROM: Pixie
Hi! I heard that you called Will a pathetic sad cat! I thought it was funny so I decided to draw this.
I hope you enjoy :)
FROM: Mal
HAHA!! Yep, that's him! Woahhh, you all are great at drawing! You should make a zine or something!! Grab some friends and some markers- I was never great at it but I LOVED drawing anyway! Punk ink & glue forever!!
FROM: Random Pigeon
Hey Mal! i made a bracelet for Big Red Box that I thought you'd like, its been my favorite one I've made so hopefully you like it!
FROM: Mal
WOAAHHHHHHH that ROCKS!!!!! Reminds me of the kandi bracelets a guy around here used to make. I'll try to put it on!!!
FROM: sylvan
hey mal !! i made this big red box patch for my bag and i wanted to show you !! :]
FROM: Mal
THANK YOU!!!!! That's amazing!!! I always wanted a cool leather vest I could put patches on. There was this older butch I used to see around the bars who had TONS of patches and pins down the front of her leather vest from concerts and conventions and stuff she'd gone to across the country. Always thought it looked rad as hell. Maybe someday!!
FROM: dragons
Hey Mal! I made you guys fan art! (I don’t know which songs were actually on the EP, so I guessed)
FROM: Mal
WOAHHHHHH!!!!!!! THANK YOU, DRAGONS!!!!! THIS IS RAD!!!! Damn, I guess that's what playing live with Henry would be like, out there and stuff. Sweet!!!
FROM: dragons
what happened to Tati? you said you thought she was "perma-gone" - because of what?
FROM: Mal
Can't go into too much detail but lot of "tati" got destroyed. Not in the way I left a bit of myself at her Discord, but totally LOST LOST FOREVER!! Moral of the story.........breakups in here are messy...
FROM: Rhydian
Hi, Mal!
The others and I have been trying to find a way to contact Thomas and we were wondering if you know of any places he frequented and/or can hear. Any advice/info is appreciated!
FROM: Mal
Hmmmmm. I know I ended up wayyyyyy closer to him than I used to be after my stuff started getting added to those digital libraries and PDF sites (like I'd see him around and stuff), but he, uhhh, isn't totally TALKATIVE on those yanno... Don't know if gramps would even know how to handle an e-messaging thingy like this one, right??? I guess out there he was a NERD cooped up in the library HAHA
FROM: Pixie
I thought it would be fun to draw you!! I hope you like it :)
FROM: Mal
WOAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! THAT'S SO RAD!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!!
